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Kieren, 23.

Why do I even post here

first time i killed myself, i came back to life

now im trying to do it again, and i just cant die

im even shit at death

i’ve been trying to fade all day and it isn’t WORKING

i want to kill myself but i don’t want to hurt the body i don’t know what to do

i need to die everything will be better if i die but i can’t make it happen

I’m going to do it tonight.

Simon deserves better than me.

I’m scared to die again. But I’m scared to stay alive, too. And maybe if I die here, I’ll get to go back home.

I want to go home.

i dont know if ill do it tonight. trying to fade is taking a lot of energy that i just. dont have right now. i think ill do it tomorrow. ill start writing notes tonight though.

I’ll leave a note, this time. For everyone in the system and for Simon.

I hope simon isn’t mad.

Who am I kidding? There are so many better Kierens out there. He won’t miss me. He’ll probably be glad I’m gone.

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