Why do I even post here
first time i killed myself, i came back to life
now im trying to do it again, and i just cant die
im even shit at death
i’ve been trying to fade all day and it isn’t WORKING
i want to kill myself but i don’t want to hurt the body i don’t know what to do
i need to die everything will be better if i die but i can’t make it happen
I’m going to do it tonight.
Simon deserves better than me.
I’m scared to die again. But I’m scared to stay alive, too. And maybe if I die here, I’ll get to go back home.
I want to go home.
i dont know if ill do it tonight. trying to fade is taking a lot of energy that i just. dont have right now. i think ill do it tomorrow. ill start writing notes tonight though.
I’ll leave a note, this time. For everyone in the system and for Simon.
I hope simon isn’t mad.
Who am I kidding? There are so many better Kierens out there. He won’t miss me. He’ll probably be glad I’m gone.